oo1.
i want to smoke but i can’t. i want to drink but i can’t. i want to injure myself but i can’t. i want to kill myself but i can’t blah fucking blah WHATEVER
Thursday, June 20, 2013
i’m so god damn fed up of being miserable, of being me of everything and i hate that i keep repeating it and whining but i swear, if i don’t it just festers away in my brain and i can feel it clawing at me and my skin crawls and i feel sick and the world just kind of blurs out. i’m really fed up with having to fight with myself for my own happiness. i hate that i am effectively destroying my own life and i can’t stop myself
i’m aware i annoy everyone, but at least you can like unfollow or ignore me or whatever, i’m stuck with myself 24/7 and its driving me insane. i want to get away from myself. i can’t handle myself.
i’m aware most people think i’m also ignoring them but i’m useless and even tho i practically beg for attention i panic when i get it. i don’t know how to respond so i spend ages typing things out and then just deleting them and trying later but i … i just can’t reply. everything i say is wrong. i sabotage myself so i can’t accept the help offered to me and i’m really sorry for that.
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